Looking back, I can't say this year has been a good one. Again. Maybe that's pretty typical. The negative has a way of making a bigger impact I guess. There have been some surprizes, lots of changes, and both joy and sadness this year. God even threw in a Christmas miracle. As much as I appreciate that miracle, I can't wait to kick 2010 to the curb and start over with new hopes and dreams for the new year.
May 2011 be blessed for all of us and full of joy, peace, health, and promises fulfilled!
Happy New Year!
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Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I Can't Say It Enough
I think the vast majority of the people who read this blog know me well enough that they know what a horrible yet miraculous roller coaster ride these last few days have been. You've been there offering your time, your ear, your prayers, and your help. I HATE that it takes times like these to bring home yet again just how blessed I am but boy am I glad to be! So, to everyone who's been there for me the last few days...thank you. You're wonderful and I hope you know how much I love you all!
Oh! God? I couldn't leave you out. Thank you for blessings beyond belief and a huge Christmas miracle. I love You!
Oh! God? I couldn't leave you out. Thank you for blessings beyond belief and a huge Christmas miracle. I love You!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Off
The last few days I've been a little "off." I'm not quite sure why, though I know that money issues and a missing atm/credit card are probably at least part of it. Maybe it's just that with the boys home more due to Thanksgiving vacation I'm having trouble finding time to pray and work out my problems with Him.
Whatever it is I do know how blessed I am. With the exception of finances (and basics are met so I shouldn't complain) things are going really well right now. Jay has had very little in the way of behaviors lately. For a week now there's been nothing but typical kid misbehavior, and extremely little of that. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop to a point but mainly just working hard to enjoy it while I can. I know there'll likely be backsliding but I am really hoping we're making true progress all the same.
Oh well. Nothing much to do except make sure I get some time with God and maybe a little more sleep. This too shall pass and before I know it I'll be back "on."
Whatever it is I do know how blessed I am. With the exception of finances (and basics are met so I shouldn't complain) things are going really well right now. Jay has had very little in the way of behaviors lately. For a week now there's been nothing but typical kid misbehavior, and extremely little of that. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop to a point but mainly just working hard to enjoy it while I can. I know there'll likely be backsliding but I am really hoping we're making true progress all the same.
Oh well. Nothing much to do except make sure I get some time with God and maybe a little more sleep. This too shall pass and before I know it I'll be back "on."
Friday, November 13, 2009
Meant to Be
Writing about B in yesterday's post reminded me that I haven't mentioned her on my blog before. I'm not going to give many details or tell her whole story but I do want to tell how she came to be my sister's foster to adopt dd.
Three years ago my sister got a job as a driver for a foster care agency. Her job, simply put, is to drive foster children to visits and appointments when neccessary. This agency covers a large area so some days she might be driving several hours one way for these trips. Soon after starting with the agency she began taking B on trips weekly. Her parents' rights had been terminated but she had visits with an aunt who intended to adopt B "when her behavior improves." Val also took her to dentist appointments, counseling appointments, and whatever else was neccessary. She brought her snacks and they talked and played games on these trips. Val began to talk about B frequently. She'd tell us cute things she said, how she did on her report card, or what B was up to in general. It's safe to say Val loved B then and has ever since.
Fast forward to July of this summer. Val heard at work that B's aunt had finally said she would not be adopting her and the current foster family was suddenly out as well. B had been moved to respite care and was looking at a new long term foster placement with a different family. Val was devastated because she hadn't known in time to have a chance for B to be placed with her. After a conversation about it with Val, the cw knew just who to call when the new placement fell through days later before B even had a chance to move in. The agency extended B's respite while they worked with Val and her dh to get them approved and B was living with them before the start of the school year.
During the process of Val and her dh being certified as foster parents, B of course had to be told what was happening. On a home visit the day after having that conversation with B, the cw told Val how it went. She told B that she wouldn't be going to live with the H family after all, but that Val and her husband wanted her to come live with them. At this point the cw got tears in her eyes and told Val that B's eyes got as big as pie plates and she gasped and said, "MY Val? MY Val wants me?"
You can argue all you want about whether B should've been removed from her parent's care. *You can debate whether the aunt that only wanted her if she could be "be good" would've been a good placement. I just don't see how you can look at how the pieces fell into place this summer or B's reaction and say that B wasn't meant to be with Val and her dh. It doesn't negate the good OR the bad of her past or her family. **Simply put people have free will and are going to do what they do. That doesn't mean God can't or won't use those actions to create something good and meant to be.
*I, by the way, would argue that she would NOT have made a decent placement. Children with issues like Jay and B won't get better to be loved and accepted, they'll get better if they ARE loved and accepted.
**I'd like to note that I saw this expressed in very similar words on another blog. I used it because it expresses what I believe but was struggling to find a way to say. I apologize to the author because it's not a blog I read frequently and I've looked but have ben unable to find it again so that I can give proper credit. If i find it later I'll update.
Three years ago my sister got a job as a driver for a foster care agency. Her job, simply put, is to drive foster children to visits and appointments when neccessary. This agency covers a large area so some days she might be driving several hours one way for these trips. Soon after starting with the agency she began taking B on trips weekly. Her parents' rights had been terminated but she had visits with an aunt who intended to adopt B "when her behavior improves." Val also took her to dentist appointments, counseling appointments, and whatever else was neccessary. She brought her snacks and they talked and played games on these trips. Val began to talk about B frequently. She'd tell us cute things she said, how she did on her report card, or what B was up to in general. It's safe to say Val loved B then and has ever since.
Fast forward to July of this summer. Val heard at work that B's aunt had finally said she would not be adopting her and the current foster family was suddenly out as well. B had been moved to respite care and was looking at a new long term foster placement with a different family. Val was devastated because she hadn't known in time to have a chance for B to be placed with her. After a conversation about it with Val, the cw knew just who to call when the new placement fell through days later before B even had a chance to move in. The agency extended B's respite while they worked with Val and her dh to get them approved and B was living with them before the start of the school year.
During the process of Val and her dh being certified as foster parents, B of course had to be told what was happening. On a home visit the day after having that conversation with B, the cw told Val how it went. She told B that she wouldn't be going to live with the H family after all, but that Val and her husband wanted her to come live with them. At this point the cw got tears in her eyes and told Val that B's eyes got as big as pie plates and she gasped and said, "MY Val? MY Val wants me?"
You can argue all you want about whether B should've been removed from her parent's care. *You can debate whether the aunt that only wanted her if she could be "be good" would've been a good placement. I just don't see how you can look at how the pieces fell into place this summer or B's reaction and say that B wasn't meant to be with Val and her dh. It doesn't negate the good OR the bad of her past or her family. **Simply put people have free will and are going to do what they do. That doesn't mean God can't or won't use those actions to create something good and meant to be.
*I, by the way, would argue that she would NOT have made a decent placement. Children with issues like Jay and B won't get better to be loved and accepted, they'll get better if they ARE loved and accepted.
**I'd like to note that I saw this expressed in very similar words on another blog. I used it because it expresses what I believe but was struggling to find a way to say. I apologize to the author because it's not a blog I read frequently and I've looked but have ben unable to find it again so that I can give proper credit. If i find it later I'll update.
Monday, November 9, 2009
God is In the LIttle Things
I've always had a pretty strong faith in God. I've seen Him act in some mighty big moments in my life (perhaps one or two of those is another blog post?). Today I saw him in the little things as the day unfolded. It was wonderful, though I can't really put into words why it meant so much to me.
To begin the day I had to get Ty to a dentist appointment 30 mins away. The morning went smoothly, including no major behaviors from Jay. We got the others to school and were on our way on time and good to go.
Yesterday I had realized, though, that Logan had a counseling appointment 15 mins away at a time near enough to Ty's dentist appointment that I didn't think we'd make it. I couldn't even cancel it because they're not open on weekends or before we had to be on the road today. I chose to let it go and try to make it. We got out of the dentist and back into town in time for me to drop Ty off at his school and go get Logan at his. The session went well according to the therapist.
After returning Logan to school I got back home just in time to get a call from my cousin asking if I wanted to meet for lunch. Fun! It was great.
After lunch I ran a few errands and got everything I had to do done. This included finding something I've been looking for/wanting for quite some time. What? Earbuds for my iPod. A little thing I know but I really enjoy my music and audiobooks. I've been looking all over town and I hadn't found what I wanted. They were either too expensive or weren't the kind I wanted. Today? I felt lead to check the Dollar General. I didn't think they'd have what I wanted but I stopped to look. Sure enough they had the kind I wanted for $4!!!! I'm sooo happy. Jay wants that kind as well and loves pink and there was even a pink pair for me to get for him for Christmas!
See? A bunch of little things working together to make a busy day that much smoother and happier!
To begin the day I had to get Ty to a dentist appointment 30 mins away. The morning went smoothly, including no major behaviors from Jay. We got the others to school and were on our way on time and good to go.
Yesterday I had realized, though, that Logan had a counseling appointment 15 mins away at a time near enough to Ty's dentist appointment that I didn't think we'd make it. I couldn't even cancel it because they're not open on weekends or before we had to be on the road today. I chose to let it go and try to make it. We got out of the dentist and back into town in time for me to drop Ty off at his school and go get Logan at his. The session went well according to the therapist.
After returning Logan to school I got back home just in time to get a call from my cousin asking if I wanted to meet for lunch. Fun! It was great.
After lunch I ran a few errands and got everything I had to do done. This included finding something I've been looking for/wanting for quite some time. What? Earbuds for my iPod. A little thing I know but I really enjoy my music and audiobooks. I've been looking all over town and I hadn't found what I wanted. They were either too expensive or weren't the kind I wanted. Today? I felt lead to check the Dollar General. I didn't think they'd have what I wanted but I stopped to look. Sure enough they had the kind I wanted for $4!!!! I'm sooo happy. Jay wants that kind as well and loves pink and there was even a pink pair for me to get for him for Christmas!
See? A bunch of little things working together to make a busy day that much smoother and happier!
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