Looking back, I can't say this year has been a good one. Again. Maybe that's pretty typical. The negative has a way of making a bigger impact I guess. There have been some surprizes, lots of changes, and both joy and sadness this year. God even threw in a Christmas miracle. As much as I appreciate that miracle, I can't wait to kick 2010 to the curb and start over with new hopes and dreams for the new year.
May 2011 be blessed for all of us and full of joy, peace, health, and promises fulfilled!
Happy New Year!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I Can't Say It Enough
I think the vast majority of the people who read this blog know me well enough that they know what a horrible yet miraculous roller coaster ride these last few days have been. You've been there offering your time, your ear, your prayers, and your help. I HATE that it takes times like these to bring home yet again just how blessed I am but boy am I glad to be! So, to everyone who's been there for me the last few days...thank you. You're wonderful and I hope you know how much I love you all!
Oh! God? I couldn't leave you out. Thank you for blessings beyond belief and a huge Christmas miracle. I love You!
Oh! God? I couldn't leave you out. Thank you for blessings beyond belief and a huge Christmas miracle. I love You!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Simple Woman's Daybook for 11/30
You can go here for the rules and to see what others are talking about on their daybooks! I should've done this yesterday but got sidetracked by the funny email I wanted to share.
FOR TODAY:
Outside my window...it's gray and pouring a lovely winter rain.
I am thinking...about my bed. Yes, already.
I am thankful for...that I've now made it through NaBloPoMo!
From the learning rooms...there hasn't been much going on due to Thanksgiving break. The boys head back to school tomorrow!
From the kitchen...Do I have to cook? I am not hungry and have no desire to even think about dinner.
I am wearing...my nightie. But shhhh lol.
I am creating...a headache with this question lol. Need I be creating something every time? LOL.
I am going...to snuggle into bed early tonight.
I am reading...well, I finished the Towers of Midnight in the Wheel of Time series. Loved it and I can not wait for the next! Meantime I've started a new series (only three books that I know of) by Rosemary Harris. The main character is Paula Holliday, a landscaper and accidental sleuth.
I am hoping...I start feeling 100% soon. Yes, I'm back on the mend AGAIN but STILL not a 100%.
I am hearing...Logan playing. Ty is being very quiet on the other computer, Jay is upstairs, and Cory is at a friend's for dinner.
Around the house...I just don't care lol.
One of my favorite things...chatting with good friends.
A few plans for the rest of the week: holiday shopping and hopefully working a little!
Here is picture for thought I am sharing. I miss the old days sometimes!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Stressed? Not Me LOL
This was forwarded to me by a good friend today. If you've seen it, I'm sorry. But it was too hilarious not to pass on.
I am not sure exactly how it works, but this is amazingly accurate.
Read the full description before looking at the picture below.
The picture below has 2 identical dolphins in it.
It was used in a case study on stress levels at St. Mary 's Hospital.
Look at both dolphins jumping out of the water.
The dolphins are identical.
A closely monitored scientific study revealed that, in spite of the fact that the dolphins are identical, a person under stress would find differences in the two dolphins.
The more differences a person finds between the dolphins, the more stress that person is experiencing.
Look at the photograph and if you find more than one or two differences you need to go on vacation.
I am not sure exactly how it works, but this is amazingly accurate.
Read the full description before looking at the picture below.
The picture below has 2 identical dolphins in it.
It was used in a case study on stress levels at St. Mary 's Hospital.
Look at both dolphins jumping out of the water.
The dolphins are identical.
A closely monitored scientific study revealed that, in spite of the fact that the dolphins are identical, a person under stress would find differences in the two dolphins.
The more differences a person finds between the dolphins, the more stress that person is experiencing.
Look at the photograph and if you find more than one or two differences you need to go on vacation.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Ahhhh...
-No rushing around and nowhere to go
-A steaming good cup of coffee in my cozy chair
-The smells of baking zucchini bread
-Good food all day long
-Family reading time with the boys
-Planning the menu for the week
-Boardgames
-The sounds of my cheering boys
-The sounds of Football on tv
Must be Sunday at our house!!! :0)
PS: I'm not sure if it'll last and it's not 100% but I AM feeling better today!
-A steaming good cup of coffee in my cozy chair
-The smells of baking zucchini bread
-Good food all day long
-Family reading time with the boys
-Planning the menu for the week
-Boardgames
-The sounds of my cheering boys
-The sounds of Football on tv
Must be Sunday at our house!!! :0)
PS: I'm not sure if it'll last and it's not 100% but I AM feeling better today!
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Friends or Family???
I wasn't planning to sit and blog right this minute. I usually do that later in the day. I just checked the NaBloPoMo prompt page for something to occupy my mind as I wait for Cory to finish playing on the boys' computer and Ty to get home from his "job" (he does odd jobs for people in the neighborhood). But this prompt? I love.
This was yesterday's prompt: Who are you closer to, friends or family? Wow. I don't know how much I'll have to SAY about this subject but I know I it makes me feel a lot.
I'm close to my family. I think my mom and dad would do almost anything for us and I would do anything within my power for them. They've always been there for me. And my brother and sister? Ya...talk about blessings!!! My sister and I are amazingly close and I can't imagine anything ever changing that. We'ere always there for each other. And my brother? He's like the world's best uncle lol. He's watched the boys for me. He takes time with them, makes them laugh, teaches them things. I absolutely love him! And I get along with and LIKE my brother and sister in-law. My brother-in-law is so good for my sister and a great dad. And my sister in law? She's more like a sister. She's sweet, she cares, and she's been there for me, too. On top of that, I have several cousins that I just adore and a couple of aunts who are almost second moms to me. I'm so blessed by all of them.
But my friends? Holy cow! I am so blessed by them, too. Can I count them any less? There are friends I've made online that I can't imagine my life without. I've even met one of them. I talk to the ones I'm closest to at least once every day. On the rare day it happens that I don't? I'm completely thrown for a loop. We've all been there for each other and will continue to be so through some difficult times. I have 3 friends I've known since fourth grade who are like sisters to me. We don't talk or see each other very often now, but when we do it's as if we were never apart. There's not much I wouldn't do for any of these ladies.
I guess it comes to this. There is family. There are friends. And there are friends who ARE family. I'm happily extremely close to the first and inordinately blessed by the number of people I can count among the third. And I thank God for both every day!
This was yesterday's prompt: Who are you closer to, friends or family? Wow. I don't know how much I'll have to SAY about this subject but I know I it makes me feel a lot.
I'm close to my family. I think my mom and dad would do almost anything for us and I would do anything within my power for them. They've always been there for me. And my brother and sister? Ya...talk about blessings!!! My sister and I are amazingly close and I can't imagine anything ever changing that. We'ere always there for each other. And my brother? He's like the world's best uncle lol. He's watched the boys for me. He takes time with them, makes them laugh, teaches them things. I absolutely love him! And I get along with and LIKE my brother and sister in-law. My brother-in-law is so good for my sister and a great dad. And my sister in law? She's more like a sister. She's sweet, she cares, and she's been there for me, too. On top of that, I have several cousins that I just adore and a couple of aunts who are almost second moms to me. I'm so blessed by all of them.
But my friends? Holy cow! I am so blessed by them, too. Can I count them any less? There are friends I've made online that I can't imagine my life without. I've even met one of them. I talk to the ones I'm closest to at least once every day. On the rare day it happens that I don't? I'm completely thrown for a loop. We've all been there for each other and will continue to be so through some difficult times. I have 3 friends I've known since fourth grade who are like sisters to me. We don't talk or see each other very often now, but when we do it's as if we were never apart. There's not much I wouldn't do for any of these ladies.
I guess it comes to this. There is family. There are friends. And there are friends who ARE family. I'm happily extremely close to the first and inordinately blessed by the number of people I can count among the third. And I thank God for both every day!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Blogging
I'm finding that I really like blogging. It's stimulating when I have a good idea that makes me dig a little deeper than usual. It's also very validating to hear from a friend who read your blog that it made them laugh, cry, or just think.
This November, for the most part, has been pretty easy to keep up with. There were a few days when I struggled for ideas but, for the most part, I just had fun with it. I'm actually finding myself a little sad that November is winding down. I know I said this last year, but I really do hope I find myself posting more when this is over.
This November, for the most part, has been pretty easy to keep up with. There were a few days when I struggled for ideas but, for the most part, I just had fun with it. I'm actually finding myself a little sad that November is winding down. I know I said this last year, but I really do hope I find myself posting more when this is over.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Simple Woman's Daybook for 11/22/10
You can go here for the rules and to see what others are talking about on their daybooks!
FOR TODAY:
Outside my window...it's overcast and dark. There were a few sunny moments today, but in general it was your typical winter day.
I am thinking...about a good book and a treat at the end of the day.
I am thankful for...God's timing!
From the learning rooms...Cory made honor roll last 9 weeks and Logan did great. Both Ty and Jay didn't do so well, as expected, but both seem more on track so far this 9 weeks.
From the kitchen...chili and cream corn casserole is on tap for dinner!
I am wearing...jeans and a purple shirt.
I am creating...I can't think of anything right now lol.
I am going...to start dinner as soon as I'm done with this post.
I am reading...the Towers of Midnight in the Wheel of Time series. Loving it but I'm not having as much time to devote to it as I usually do. (YUP! Still reading it but nearly done. I have less than a hundred to go!
I am hoping...I start feeling 100% soon. I'm down again today with a sore throat and fever.
I am hearing...silence lol. Logan is reading and the others are outside playing right up til the moment it's too dark to be out lol.
Around the house...I have more laundry to do.
One of my favorite things...pecan cookie bars!
A few plans for the rest of the week: Thanksgiving and a long weekend!
Here is picture for thought I am sharing. Summer fun!
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Words
I saw a prompt on a friend's blog that asked what your favorite poem is. Here's mine:
The Thousandth Man
by Rudyard Kipling
One man in a thousand, Solomon says,
Will stick more close than a brother.
And it's worth while seeking him half your days
If you find him before the other.
Nine nundred and ninety-nine depend
On what the world sees in you,
But the Thousandth man will stand your friend
With the whole round world agin you.
'Tis neither promise nor prayer nor show
Will settle the finding for 'ee.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em go
By your looks, or your acts, or your glory.
But if he finds you and you find him.
The rest of the world don't matter;
For the Thousandth Man will sink or swim
With you in any water.
You can use his purse with no more talk
Than he uses yours for his spendings,
And laugh and meet in your daily walk
As though there had been no lendings.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em call
For silver and gold in their dealings;
But the Thousandth Man h's worth 'em all,
Because you can show him your feelings.
His wrong's your wrong, and his right's your right,
In season or out of season.
Stand up and back it in all men's sight --
With that for your only reason!
Nine hundred and ninety-nine can't bide
The shame or mocking or laughter,
But the Thousandth Man will stand by your side
To the gallows-foot -- and after!
I first saw this poem referenced in a story I was reading. One of the characters quoted the last few lines in description of his relationship with another of the characters. I remember feeling so touched that I had to look it up, and it made me cry. I think it says a lot that I have remembered these words for years and years but have long forgotten the book I first read them in. I think it affected me so much because I wanted that-a person in my life to have that with. In fact, I think the only thing I've ever wanted more was children.
The Thousandth Man
by Rudyard Kipling
One man in a thousand, Solomon says,
Will stick more close than a brother.
And it's worth while seeking him half your days
If you find him before the other.
Nine nundred and ninety-nine depend
On what the world sees in you,
But the Thousandth man will stand your friend
With the whole round world agin you.
'Tis neither promise nor prayer nor show
Will settle the finding for 'ee.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em go
By your looks, or your acts, or your glory.
But if he finds you and you find him.
The rest of the world don't matter;
For the Thousandth Man will sink or swim
With you in any water.
You can use his purse with no more talk
Than he uses yours for his spendings,
And laugh and meet in your daily walk
As though there had been no lendings.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of 'em call
For silver and gold in their dealings;
But the Thousandth Man h's worth 'em all,
Because you can show him your feelings.
His wrong's your wrong, and his right's your right,
In season or out of season.
Stand up and back it in all men's sight --
With that for your only reason!
Nine hundred and ninety-nine can't bide
The shame or mocking or laughter,
But the Thousandth Man will stand by your side
To the gallows-foot -- and after!
I first saw this poem referenced in a story I was reading. One of the characters quoted the last few lines in description of his relationship with another of the characters. I remember feeling so touched that I had to look it up, and it made me cry. I think it says a lot that I have remembered these words for years and years but have long forgotten the book I first read them in. I think it affected me so much because I wanted that-a person in my life to have that with. In fact, I think the only thing I've ever wanted more was children.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Nemesis Conquered
For anyone who knows me it's no surprize that I like to cook. And ya, I'm pretty good. I'm not nearly as good as several women in my family and a couple of my foodie friends but, in general, I'm proud of my cooking. I have, though, never mastered the simple meatloaf. Most of the time it tastes good but crumbles into bits. It's been dry a time or two. I could just never get it right. Until last night. Holy wow. The taste? Spot on. It was moist. IT DIDN'T FALL APART!!! And oh my word the gravy. The best I ever made. I sat and ate it by itself by the spoonful. EVERYONE liked it. Mission finally accomplished. I have defeated the mighty meatloaf!!!!!
PS: I didn't measure so I can't give a recipe per se. I can say I put ketchup, oregano, an egg, bread crumbs, oatmeal, and parmesan cheese in it. I'm too much like my mom and I never measure unless I'm baking. I'll probably never be able to do it again! LOL.
PS: I didn't measure so I can't give a recipe per se. I can say I put ketchup, oregano, an egg, bread crumbs, oatmeal, and parmesan cheese in it. I'm too much like my mom and I never measure unless I'm baking. I'll probably never be able to do it again! LOL.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part I
I went to see it tonight. I have to say I loved it. In fact, I think it might well be my favorite. It was a roller coaster ride from begining to end, really. It was sad, sentimental, scary, and exciting. I got there late enough that I didn't want to wait in line to buy a snack so when I decided later that I DID want popcorn, I was kind of in trouble. Even at the the part I found the most boring, I couldn't make myself get up and go get it. It was a darn good adaptation, too. I can't really think of any major changes I disagreed with or anything left out that I drastically missed. And the ending? Wow. I wasn't sure where they'd break between the two movies but it just seemed right to me.
Can you tell I really liked it? LOL.
Can you tell I really liked it? LOL.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
School Pics 2010
PLEASE NOTE: I didn't include Jay's at this time. He's asked me not to share his as it didn't turn out that well. He'll be getting retakes and as soon as that picture is back, I'll post it.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Simple Woman's Daybook for 11/17/10
I'm planning on get back into this. I know it's Wednesday but if I remember lol I'll get back on the Monday schedule next week.
FOR TODAY:
Outside my window...it's overcast and dark. It's also VERY windy today.
I am thinking...about what I have to get done the rest of the day.
I am thankful for...having a plan for dinner already!
From the learning rooms...getting the boys through their homework is currently pretty easy. Cory, Ty, and Logan are nearly completely independent. Jay is doing better right now because the topic in Math (graphs and data) is much easier for him.
From the kitchen...I'm making meatloaf and mashed taters tonight for dinner.
I am wearing...tan slacks and a blue shirt.
I am creating...a loving, clean, and cozy home for the boys (hopefully.)
I am going...to pick the boys up from school soon.
I am reading...the Towers of Midnight in the Wheel of Time series. Loving it but I'm not having as much time to devote to it as I usually do.
I am hoping...for a job!
I am hearing...the Food Network on tv.
Around the house...everything is pretty caught up actually.
One of my favorite things...snuggling in my cozy chair with coffee and all my boys on the weekend.
A few plans for the rest of the week: Hopefully seeing Deathly Hallows Part 1 and just getting through the usual routine.
Here is picture for thought I am sharing: Mean mommy strikes again!!!!
FOR TODAY:
Outside my window...it's overcast and dark. It's also VERY windy today.
I am thinking...about what I have to get done the rest of the day.
I am thankful for...having a plan for dinner already!
From the learning rooms...getting the boys through their homework is currently pretty easy. Cory, Ty, and Logan are nearly completely independent. Jay is doing better right now because the topic in Math (graphs and data) is much easier for him.
From the kitchen...I'm making meatloaf and mashed taters tonight for dinner.
I am wearing...tan slacks and a blue shirt.
I am creating...a loving, clean, and cozy home for the boys (hopefully.)
I am going...to pick the boys up from school soon.
I am reading...the Towers of Midnight in the Wheel of Time series. Loving it but I'm not having as much time to devote to it as I usually do.
I am hoping...for a job!
I am hearing...the Food Network on tv.
Around the house...everything is pretty caught up actually.
One of my favorite things...snuggling in my cozy chair with coffee and all my boys on the weekend.
A few plans for the rest of the week: Hopefully seeing Deathly Hallows Part 1 and just getting through the usual routine.
Here is picture for thought I am sharing: Mean mommy strikes again!!!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Thankful
It's that time of year and I'm feeling the need to remind myself of the blessings in my life. So, I am thankful for:
1. God.
2. The boys. We have our moments but I couldn't live without the love, laughter, joy, and excitement they bring into my life!
3. My friends and family! I'm truly blessed in this area.
4. My family's health.
5. The fact that we have all we need, even if not everything we want: enough food to eat, a place to live, warm clothes to wear, etc.
6. My car.
7. The little things that make my life so pleasant: clean sheets, coffee, music, movies, chocolate, etc.
1. God.
2. The boys. We have our moments but I couldn't live without the love, laughter, joy, and excitement they bring into my life!
3. My friends and family! I'm truly blessed in this area.
4. My family's health.
5. The fact that we have all we need, even if not everything we want: enough food to eat, a place to live, warm clothes to wear, etc.
6. My car.
7. The little things that make my life so pleasant: clean sheets, coffee, music, movies, chocolate, etc.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Record Setting
Wow! What a night for Eagles football. They had a record setting first quarter. It started with an opening play touchdown. They had 28 points by the end of the first, which has never been done before apparently. As I'm watching now in the second quarter it's 35 to 14. The best part? I got to watch it all with Ty, whose excitement made it all the better!
Off to finsih watching.
Off to finsih watching.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Random Sunday Musings
Here's a random list of things about today:
I spent around 2 hours trying to fix our clippers so I could give the boys haircuts.
I threw out our clippers.
I gave all four of the boys haircuts with new clippers.
We went to the indoor pool. I needed the hot tub!
I made homemade mac and cheese. I don't think I make good mac and cheese but the boys love it. All of them. They request it. How can I argue with that?
At 8 pm at night, four haircuts does not seem like that much to have accomplished in a day. Especially when the house is now a mess. Sigh.
Sometimes? Two cups of coffee just isn't enough.
I am exhausted. Is it really only 8 pm?
I spent around 2 hours trying to fix our clippers so I could give the boys haircuts.
I threw out our clippers.
I gave all four of the boys haircuts with new clippers.
We went to the indoor pool. I needed the hot tub!
I made homemade mac and cheese. I don't think I make good mac and cheese but the boys love it. All of them. They request it. How can I argue with that?
At 8 pm at night, four haircuts does not seem like that much to have accomplished in a day. Especially when the house is now a mess. Sigh.
Sometimes? Two cups of coffee just isn't enough.
I am exhausted. Is it really only 8 pm?
Saturday, November 13, 2010
I Could...
-blog a meme as I've seen a couple out there.
-do a Saturday six post I've been working on but it's been a mind bender and isn't finished.
-tell you about a few of the crazier things happening here the last few days.
-put myself out there and ask for questions from readers. Nah...I'd just be embarrassed that no one responded LOL.
I think I'll just cheat again and leave you with a couple of pictures. Care to guess where we went today????
ETA: Please enjoy the fierce look. He's really not mad. The doctor noted his football jersey and pretended to think he'd been injured in a big game so that's the look he was going for. He loved every minute of it! Well, that and the 2 (yes, 2) "very hot looking" nurses fawning over him. No one senses Cory's influence there, right? ;)
-do a Saturday six post I've been working on but it's been a mind bender and isn't finished.
-tell you about a few of the crazier things happening here the last few days.
-put myself out there and ask for questions from readers. Nah...I'd just be embarrassed that no one responded LOL.
I think I'll just cheat again and leave you with a couple of pictures. Care to guess where we went today????
ETA: Please enjoy the fierce look. He's really not mad. The doctor noted his football jersey and pretended to think he'd been injured in a big game so that's the look he was going for. He loved every minute of it! Well, that and the 2 (yes, 2) "very hot looking" nurses fawning over him. No one senses Cory's influence there, right? ;)
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Veteran's Day
Veteran's Day has always meant a lot to me. There are a lot of people on both sides of my family, including my parents, who were in the military. That also includes my cousin Cory currently serving in Afghanistan. I've had several friends in the military. But this year? Some things have made it even more meaningful to me. I was shocked and so sad to learn that my friend Patty's son was killed in action after being deployed for only a couple of weeks. My friend Gina's son was killed in a car accident. He was too young yet to serve but was planning on it and was involved where he could be. The third and final thing is that Cory (my son, not my cousin) has expressed interest in serving when he graduates and since he's in 9th grade, we've been exploring opportunities for him in that area. All of this just brings it closer to home than ever.
So let me just say this: If you have served, are serving, or are going to serve, please know that you have my everlasting gratitude and respect!
So let me just say this: If you have served, are serving, or are going to serve, please know that you have my everlasting gratitude and respect!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Today...
In ten words:
1. Early
2. Dark
3. Tiring
4. Long
5. Cold
6. Quiet
7. Calm
8. Productive
9. Wintery
10. OVER!
1. Early
2. Dark
3. Tiring
4. Long
5. Cold
6. Quiet
7. Calm
8. Productive
9. Wintery
10. OVER!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Ahhhh, Monday. Sweet Monday
After I posted yesterday, the weekend continued in the same way. The conversation from my previous post happened on Saturday and Sunday was just as fun. We had good food that everyone was happy to try, even if not everyone liked it. We watched the Eagles game together and just had a very pleasant day.
And then...
Monday had to come along and hit me like a ton of bricks lol. It started early when Jay locked the keys in the car after it was started so it could warm up. Thirty dollars for a locksmith to open it up. That was the worst of it but the rest of the day was pretty much the same, just lots of little things here and there that didn't go right. Like getting to the grocery store and realizing I had left my purse at home. Ah well. There's only a few more hours left in the day and at least the kids are in good moods.
And then...
Monday had to come along and hit me like a ton of bricks lol. It started early when Jay locked the keys in the car after it was started so it could warm up. Thirty dollars for a locksmith to open it up. That was the worst of it but the rest of the day was pretty much the same, just lots of little things here and there that didn't go right. Like getting to the grocery store and realizing I had left my purse at home. Ah well. There's only a few more hours left in the day and at least the kids are in good moods.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
My Heart
I've never gone into much detail on my blog with the boys' stories or behaviors but if you read enough, you know that at times they can be challenging. In the past, I have felt defeated and even a bit broken at times. I've also recently said that I think we, as a family, and as individuals, have made some serious progress. I do know, as I've said before, that there will be more work to be done. But it's moments like last night that make my heart melt and make it all worth while.
We were driving to a local megamart and it was just a moment I want to freeze and carry with me forever. We began talking about lucky numbers, which for the boys translates quickly to birthdays, locker numbers/combinations, jersey numbers of favorite athletes, and car numbers of favorite NASCAR drivers. This led to what we call "double lucky" numbers...numbers that have more than one meaning for that person. Example...Ty's jersey number this year was 16 and that is in his locker combination. Logan's favorite race car driver is #2 and his birthday is the second. It was just fun and silly UNTIL this:
Ty: You were born in 1971, right, mom?
Me: Yep.
Ty: So you're going to be the big 4-0 this year. (Yes, he already knew this. I've been lamenting it for a few years now. Two actually...since my older brother turned 40 lol.)
Jay: Hey! That's cool. You need to celebrate. We should really do something for it this year.
Ty: Yeah! What can we do?
Logan: We should par-tay! (Yes he said it like that. I swear I don't know where he got it from lol.)
Jay: Aunt Val will help us, guys!
Ty: You're gonna be so surprized mom! (Um, no, now I'm not. But thanks! LOL)
At this point the conversation veered in another direction. I was lost in my own space for a few minutes but they didn't notice. I was thinking about the love and excitement in their voices. And you know what? I know I shouldn't need that to make me feel loved, respected, and validated. But it did anyway.
We were driving to a local megamart and it was just a moment I want to freeze and carry with me forever. We began talking about lucky numbers, which for the boys translates quickly to birthdays, locker numbers/combinations, jersey numbers of favorite athletes, and car numbers of favorite NASCAR drivers. This led to what we call "double lucky" numbers...numbers that have more than one meaning for that person. Example...Ty's jersey number this year was 16 and that is in his locker combination. Logan's favorite race car driver is #2 and his birthday is the second. It was just fun and silly UNTIL this:
Ty: You were born in 1971, right, mom?
Me: Yep.
Ty: So you're going to be the big 4-0 this year. (Yes, he already knew this. I've been lamenting it for a few years now. Two actually...since my older brother turned 40 lol.)
Jay: Hey! That's cool. You need to celebrate. We should really do something for it this year.
Ty: Yeah! What can we do?
Logan: We should par-tay! (Yes he said it like that. I swear I don't know where he got it from lol.)
Jay: Aunt Val will help us, guys!
Ty: You're gonna be so surprized mom! (Um, no, now I'm not. But thanks! LOL)
At this point the conversation veered in another direction. I was lost in my own space for a few minutes but they didn't notice. I was thinking about the love and excitement in their voices. And you know what? I know I shouldn't need that to make me feel loved, respected, and validated. But it did anyway.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
The Saturday Six
Thanks, Camille, for the post idea!
Today's Saturday Six is: Name 6 of your favorite Movie Soundtracks and also a favorite track from each one.
1. Beaches has to be my favorite. I like so many of the songs on it but here are a few: "Wind Beneath My Wings", "Under the Boardwalk", and "I know You by Heart."
2. Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves simply for one of my favorite songs ever, "Everything I do."
3. Dirty Dancing because I love "The time of My life" and "She's Like the Wind."
4. Young Guns because what can I say? I love Bon Jovi! "Blaze of Glory," "Billy Get Your Guns," "Blood Money," "Miracle"...need I say more?
5. The Bodyguard for songs like "I Will Always Love You" and "I Have Nothing."
6. Highlander because I like Queen's music. There's something haunting about "Who Wants to Live Forever."
Today's Saturday Six is: Name 6 of your favorite Movie Soundtracks and also a favorite track from each one.
1. Beaches has to be my favorite. I like so many of the songs on it but here are a few: "Wind Beneath My Wings", "Under the Boardwalk", and "I know You by Heart."
2. Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves simply for one of my favorite songs ever, "Everything I do."
3. Dirty Dancing because I love "The time of My life" and "She's Like the Wind."
4. Young Guns because what can I say? I love Bon Jovi! "Blaze of Glory," "Billy Get Your Guns," "Blood Money," "Miracle"...need I say more?
5. The Bodyguard for songs like "I Will Always Love You" and "I Have Nothing."
6. Highlander because I like Queen's music. There's something haunting about "Who Wants to Live Forever."
Friday, November 5, 2010
Better
I'm tired and coughing but much better than yesterday. The house is clean, the boys are in bed or heading that way, and I have a treat and a good book waiting for me. So...despite an hour or so of "Calgon take me away" moments this afternoon, it's gonna be a good night!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
More Pictures...What Are Ya Gonna Do Bout It?
I know I did pictures yesterday but I'm not feeling the best so it's what you're going to get. These are our traditional fall pics. I'm showing you my favorite group shot and individual shot of each of the boys. Really, though, most didn't come out very well technically. They always seemed to be blurry or the lighting was way off. I'm hoping to try again but we'll see. Anyway, enjoy!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Halloween Pictures
I'm taking a bit of an easy way out and just leaving you with some pics tonight. We have for your viewing pleasure: the pumpkins the boys carved, Cory in the process of carving as he did not go trick or treating with us this year, and the boys dressed for trick or treating. The little girl in the pictuere with the boys is Ty's sister. Enjoy!
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Mini Update
Things are going pretty well here. Cory and Logan are doing great in school. Jay and Ty have had some ups and downs academically. It's actually been such a roller coaster ride with them that I'm waiting for report cards next week to know how they'll end up doing.
Behavior here has really stabilized lately. Do I dare say we've had some true breakthroughs? I realize that there will be backslides and that some of the issues they deal with they'll have to work on for the rest of their lives, but I have seen some true healing going on.
Soccer and cross country are offically over. Both older boys have plans to join other sports as well this year, though. We'll have to see what happens with that. Ty is interested in basketball and Cory is thinking about track in the Spring. Skiing starts in January as well for all of them.
The job ended up not working out so I'm back substituting and stressing about money. Prayers for permanent, full time employment would be much appreciated by those of you who pray. Aside from that, I'm doing well.
Behavior here has really stabilized lately. Do I dare say we've had some true breakthroughs? I realize that there will be backslides and that some of the issues they deal with they'll have to work on for the rest of their lives, but I have seen some true healing going on.
Soccer and cross country are offically over. Both older boys have plans to join other sports as well this year, though. We'll have to see what happens with that. Ty is interested in basketball and Cory is thinking about track in the Spring. Skiing starts in January as well for all of them.
The job ended up not working out so I'm back substituting and stressing about money. Prayers for permanent, full time employment would be much appreciated by those of you who pray. Aside from that, I'm doing well.
Monday, November 1, 2010
NaBloPoMo
Yeah, I'm gonna do it. Why not, right? LOL. So I guess you all might expect some very exciting (ahem lol) posts on the boys and my oh so thrilling life lol. That's it for Day 1. Easy enough, right? I so got this :)
Sunday, September 26, 2010
First day of School 2010 and an Update
The school year is well underway here so I thought I'd update everyone on us. I'm sorry I've been such a bad blogger. I've just been really busy. There have been nights where we were literally only home in time to pretty much go to bed.
Cory is once again rocking it. He's doing fantastic at both school AND cross country. I'm just so proud of him!
Tyler is doing ok at school. He needs to work a bit harder, but he can do it. He's loving being on the school soccer team, and I'm enjoying watching him play. He, and his team, are really good.
Jay is doing well in school with the exception of Math, which has always been his hard subject. He loves soccer, and is a really good player, though his team this year isn't winning many games. Behaviorally he's doing much better.
Logan loves school and as of right now needs no help at all. He loves soccer and is a good player, too. He's tiny but athletic.
As for me? Well, I've been subbing. Every day. The good news is I love the job. The bad news is the pay. It's a part time aide position so it doesn't pay as much as a teacher but it's not bad. And, actually, it's probably more than I'd be making subbing as a teacher right now just because it's steady. The job is now open and I put in for it. I should know soon if I get it or not.
Here's a picture of the boys back on the first day of school. Cory was stressed, and that means grumpy for him, so none of them turned out all that great. Enjoy anyway lol.
Cory is once again rocking it. He's doing fantastic at both school AND cross country. I'm just so proud of him!
Tyler is doing ok at school. He needs to work a bit harder, but he can do it. He's loving being on the school soccer team, and I'm enjoying watching him play. He, and his team, are really good.
Jay is doing well in school with the exception of Math, which has always been his hard subject. He loves soccer, and is a really good player, though his team this year isn't winning many games. Behaviorally he's doing much better.
Logan loves school and as of right now needs no help at all. He loves soccer and is a good player, too. He's tiny but athletic.
As for me? Well, I've been subbing. Every day. The good news is I love the job. The bad news is the pay. It's a part time aide position so it doesn't pay as much as a teacher but it's not bad. And, actually, it's probably more than I'd be making subbing as a teacher right now just because it's steady. The job is now open and I put in for it. I should know soon if I get it or not.
Here's a picture of the boys back on the first day of school. Cory was stressed, and that means grumpy for him, so none of them turned out all that great. Enjoy anyway lol.
65 Questions
65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked...you know the rules. Tag people in this note (including the person who tagged you!) to learn more about people. Also, try to tag people who you've tagged in other notes, sometimes you learn things in new notes that you didn't know before about them...
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My face
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
I don't own a hoodie (I know...GASP!)
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Definitely
4. Do you plan outfits?
Work outfits only
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
My legs ache a bit but good and happy otherwise.
6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
Jay's pj's (on the floor where they aren't supposed to be)
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I don't remember any to tell about.
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope
9. What are you craving right now?
Chocolate
10. Do you floss?
Yes but not regularly
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Coleslaw
12. Are you emotional?
Very
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Probably but not that I remember for certain.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I bite it sometimes.
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes
16. Do you like yourself?
Yes
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Sure. Why not?
18. What are you listening to right now?
Just the noises of the boys and house around me.
19. Are your parents strict?
They were.
20. Would you go sky diving?
Yes, I think I would.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
A few music stars...the band Queensryche and Randy Travis. Weird taste range, I know lol.
23. Do you rent movies often?
Nope – Netflix. Love it.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Not really
25. How many countries have you visited?
5
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Of course!
27. Ever been on a train?
Only subways. Does that count?
28. Brown or white eggs?
Either.
29.Do you have a cell phone?
Yes
30. Do you use chapstick?
Not really.
31. Do you own a gun?
No
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Not well
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My sons.
34. Are you too forgiving?
I don't think so. I tend to forgive easily, but I think that's how it should be. There's only a handful of people I haven't forgiven and they hurt my children.
35. Ever been in love?
Yes
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Being a SAHM.
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yes
38. Last time you cried?
Two nights ago while watching a movie
39. What was the last question you asked?
Whose turn is it to take out the trash?
40. Favorite time of the year?
It's a toss up between fall and THE holidays.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
No
42. Are you sarcastic?
Frequently
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes I have.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
No. No one saw so that's my story and I'm sticking to it!
45. Favorite color?
Green.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes
47. Is your hair curly?
Usually more like wavy than curly.
48. What was the last CD you bought?
It's been so long all I could say is that it was most likely country music. Probably Buddy Jewel.
49. Do looks matter?
Depends on the situation. It doesn't affect whether or not I like someone but for some things? a certain look is just needed.
50. Last text you received?
I IM but I don't text. The last IM I got as I write this was: "Exactly"
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
No.
52. Do you like your life right now?
Most of it. I am totally blessed!
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.
54. Can you handle the truth?
Yes.
55. Do you have good vision?
Not really
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I hate 2. I dislike more.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not that much actually.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Logan
59. What are you wearing?
Blue shorts and a tee shirt
60.What is your favorite animal?
Dogs
61. Where was your default picture taken?
Outside at a local landmark
62. Can you hula hoop?
Yes but I was actually GOOD at it as a kid.
63. Do you have a job?
Two actually...mommy and teacher.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Milk.
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
As usual, I won't tag anyone in particular. If you wanna and haven't, I'd love to read it!
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My face
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
I don't own a hoodie (I know...GASP!)
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Definitely
4. Do you plan outfits?
Work outfits only
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
My legs ache a bit but good and happy otherwise.
6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
Jay's pj's (on the floor where they aren't supposed to be)
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I don't remember any to tell about.
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope
9. What are you craving right now?
Chocolate
10. Do you floss?
Yes but not regularly
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Coleslaw
12. Are you emotional?
Very
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Probably but not that I remember for certain.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I bite it sometimes.
15. Do you like your hair?
Yes
16. Do you like yourself?
Yes
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Sure. Why not?
18. What are you listening to right now?
Just the noises of the boys and house around me.
19. Are your parents strict?
They were.
20. Would you go sky diving?
Yes, I think I would.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
A few music stars...the band Queensryche and Randy Travis. Weird taste range, I know lol.
23. Do you rent movies often?
Nope – Netflix. Love it.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Not really
25. How many countries have you visited?
5
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Of course!
27. Ever been on a train?
Only subways. Does that count?
28. Brown or white eggs?
Either.
29.Do you have a cell phone?
Yes
30. Do you use chapstick?
Not really.
31. Do you own a gun?
No
32. Can you use chop sticks?
Not well
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My sons.
34. Are you too forgiving?
I don't think so. I tend to forgive easily, but I think that's how it should be. There's only a handful of people I haven't forgiven and they hurt my children.
35. Ever been in love?
Yes
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Being a SAHM.
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yes
38. Last time you cried?
Two nights ago while watching a movie
39. What was the last question you asked?
Whose turn is it to take out the trash?
40. Favorite time of the year?
It's a toss up between fall and THE holidays.
41. Do you have any tattoos?
No
42. Are you sarcastic?
Frequently
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes I have.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
No. No one saw so that's my story and I'm sticking to it!
45. Favorite color?
Green.
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes
47. Is your hair curly?
Usually more like wavy than curly.
48. What was the last CD you bought?
It's been so long all I could say is that it was most likely country music. Probably Buddy Jewel.
49. Do looks matter?
Depends on the situation. It doesn't affect whether or not I like someone but for some things? a certain look is just needed.
50. Last text you received?
I IM but I don't text. The last IM I got as I write this was: "Exactly"
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
No.
52. Do you like your life right now?
Most of it. I am totally blessed!
53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No.
54. Can you handle the truth?
Yes.
55. Do you have good vision?
Not really
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I hate 2. I dislike more.
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not that much actually.
58. The last person you held hands with?
Logan
59. What are you wearing?
Blue shorts and a tee shirt
60.What is your favorite animal?
Dogs
61. Where was your default picture taken?
Outside at a local landmark
62. Can you hula hoop?
Yes but I was actually GOOD at it as a kid.
63. Do you have a job?
Two actually...mommy and teacher.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Milk.
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
As usual, I won't tag anyone in particular. If you wanna and haven't, I'd love to read it!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Ready for School
We've been keeping busy enjoying what's left of summer. We've done more fishing, gone to the lake again, and of course we have everything we need for the school year. Well, except jeans. They all need new jeans. That can wait though since they all like to wear shorts for as long as the weather allows.
This is the beginning of the busiest time of year for us. Ty, Jay, and Logan are all in soccer and Cory runs for cross country. At the high school now. Can you believe that? A high school student! Anyway, it's challenging to work a schedule that allows us to eat together as much as possible this time of year and for me to get to as many games for all the boys as I can, but I absolutely love it. Fall sports...bring it on!
This is the beginning of the busiest time of year for us. Ty, Jay, and Logan are all in soccer and Cory runs for cross country. At the high school now. Can you believe that? A high school student! Anyway, it's challenging to work a schedule that allows us to eat together as much as possible this time of year and for me to get to as many games for all the boys as I can, but I absolutely love it. Fall sports...bring it on!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Pictures
Here are a couple of pictures from the baseball game. They didn't all turn out that great but I love them! There's also a pic of Jay's family birthday cake.
Fun
Since my last post, the boys' behavior has gotten even better. There's the typical sniping at each other because of the enforced togetherness that is summer lol but I can deal with that no problem. We've actually been making some headway, I think. Real progress! This isn't to say that there won't be other backslides or brand new issues that come up but I feel good about where we all are right now.
One thing that might be helping is I am trying to keep us as busy as I can. We're doing the usual swimming, library visits, and park outings. We went to a AAA professional baseball game on Saturday for Jay's birthday. Cory was the only one who'd gone to a pro game before. They all were so excited, though, that you would've thought it was Christmas. I loved every minute of it lol. I've been to two Phillies games and this little AAA game? Had them beat to heck because of the boys. I bought each of the boys new baseballs before we went and the players were very gracious with their autographs. The whole thing was just a blast!
One thing that might be helping is I am trying to keep us as busy as I can. We're doing the usual swimming, library visits, and park outings. We went to a AAA professional baseball game on Saturday for Jay's birthday. Cory was the only one who'd gone to a pro game before. They all were so excited, though, that you would've thought it was Christmas. I loved every minute of it lol. I've been to two Phillies games and this little AAA game? Had them beat to heck because of the boys. I bought each of the boys new baseballs before we went and the players were very gracious with their autographs. The whole thing was just a blast!
Monday, July 5, 2010
Happy Fourth and A Note
I hope you all had a happy, safe holiday weekend. We certainly did. The boys were well behaved all day, the weather was nice, and the fireworks were fun. We had snacks, sparklers, and a great place to watch from. I DID forget to take my camera. Bummer lol. Anyway, it was a really great night.
Now. A quick note about my prolonged bloggy absence. I started posts several times but they never made it to "post." There was one that did but I deleted it within a short period of time because it seemed too pity party and attention-seeking. Not that it wasn't true, just...I don't know. Suffice it to say that from about March through early June things were NOT so good. Some of it was dealing with the boys' behaviors but probably more was me. Their behaviors weren't new. We were in a "mega backslide" but it wasn't anything I hadn't seen before. It's just that after 3 years of dealing with those issues, I was anxious and aroused myself. Feel free to add in a healthy dose of depression and exhaustion from those same years of having children with sleep issues. In other words, they DON'T. Sleep that is. So I don't. Anyway, I was just NOT in a good place. I've never gone too much into detail about the boys' behaviors and it seemed like that was my life. Everything, no matter how big or small, was the straw that broke my back. I didn't know, and I'm still not really sure about this, how much I wanted to share. It made writing hard.
At any rate, things are currently better. I'm still exhausted but not quite as much as before. Behaviors are leveling out for the time being. The summer so far has been mostly rejuvenating, for all of us. My anxiety is much more under control. I have a handle on it now. I guess I tend towards being an anxious person anyway but the last few years with so much out of my control, mainly the court case and the boys' behaviors, saw it grow to a proportion I have never before had to deal with. Anyway, I am dedicating this summer to as much fun and healing (physically and emotionally) as we can get!
Now. A quick note about my prolonged bloggy absence. I started posts several times but they never made it to "post." There was one that did but I deleted it within a short period of time because it seemed too pity party and attention-seeking. Not that it wasn't true, just...I don't know. Suffice it to say that from about March through early June things were NOT so good. Some of it was dealing with the boys' behaviors but probably more was me. Their behaviors weren't new. We were in a "mega backslide" but it wasn't anything I hadn't seen before. It's just that after 3 years of dealing with those issues, I was anxious and aroused myself. Feel free to add in a healthy dose of depression and exhaustion from those same years of having children with sleep issues. In other words, they DON'T. Sleep that is. So I don't. Anyway, I was just NOT in a good place. I've never gone too much into detail about the boys' behaviors and it seemed like that was my life. Everything, no matter how big or small, was the straw that broke my back. I didn't know, and I'm still not really sure about this, how much I wanted to share. It made writing hard.
At any rate, things are currently better. I'm still exhausted but not quite as much as before. Behaviors are leveling out for the time being. The summer so far has been mostly rejuvenating, for all of us. My anxiety is much more under control. I have a handle on it now. I guess I tend towards being an anxious person anyway but the last few years with so much out of my control, mainly the court case and the boys' behaviors, saw it grow to a proportion I have never before had to deal with. Anyway, I am dedicating this summer to as much fun and healing (physically and emotionally) as we can get!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
The Cat in the Cup
This is just a quick, cute home video of our cat Sparky. Pretty self-explanatory lol.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Birthday Boy Then and Now
Then...just turning 3.
Now...my very preppy 6 yr old big boy.
Happy Birthday, Boo! You've grown up so much. I look at you now and I have to admit I don't have a baby anymore. Such a big year you've had...starting kindergarten, learning to read, and loosing teeth are just a few of your bigger accomplishments. I know you're still struggling with the harder things life has thrown at you, but I want you to know that I'm proud of how far you've come. We'll keep working on it together til we get it right! And thanks for saying that you'll always be my baby, even if you don't mean it lol.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
A Lot of Nuthin'
I haven't had a whole lot to say recently, obviously. There's just not much new going on. We're plugging along doing the day to day grind. We're enjoying the begining of spring weather and I'm looking forward to the summer for now. I intend to enjoy it a lot more than last year, which we all refer to as the summer that wasn't LOL.
Updates on each of us~
Cory is still rocking the school year. He's doing great with little help or guidance from me. I hope he can keep this up. I'm really proud of this new found independence. He had a mega spurt of disrespect going on but has really turned that around.
Ty is doing well too. He really didn't have any problems except for reading. He's in 6th grade and was reading on a 3rd grade level and then not passing his AR quizzes. AR quizzes are short computer quizzes on regular books that kids might read anyway. It's a good way to get kids to like reading more. Anyway, he's now taking and passing 5th grade level quizzes so he's put some effort in and is doing much better.
Jay's doing great in school. He's reading the same books Ty is and passing them so he's in 3rd reading on a 5th grade level. His struggle is in Math but not so much that I'm worried about him. Behaviorally he's going through a rough patch. I'm tired, he's testing. Still, we're dealing with it and I hope I don't jinx it by saying I think we're on the downside of this backslide.
Logan is reading up a storm and is doing well at school. He's behaving slightly better too. I still see the same behaviors but they're not quite as frequent.
I haven't been subbing much and except for not making the extra money I don't mind too much lol. I LOVE teaching but subbing is a lot different and I really don't like it.
That's about all for now, folks!
Updates on each of us~
Cory is still rocking the school year. He's doing great with little help or guidance from me. I hope he can keep this up. I'm really proud of this new found independence. He had a mega spurt of disrespect going on but has really turned that around.
Ty is doing well too. He really didn't have any problems except for reading. He's in 6th grade and was reading on a 3rd grade level and then not passing his AR quizzes. AR quizzes are short computer quizzes on regular books that kids might read anyway. It's a good way to get kids to like reading more. Anyway, he's now taking and passing 5th grade level quizzes so he's put some effort in and is doing much better.
Jay's doing great in school. He's reading the same books Ty is and passing them so he's in 3rd reading on a 5th grade level. His struggle is in Math but not so much that I'm worried about him. Behaviorally he's going through a rough patch. I'm tired, he's testing. Still, we're dealing with it and I hope I don't jinx it by saying I think we're on the downside of this backslide.
Logan is reading up a storm and is doing well at school. He's behaving slightly better too. I still see the same behaviors but they're not quite as frequent.
I haven't been subbing much and except for not making the extra money I don't mind too much lol. I LOVE teaching but subbing is a lot different and I really don't like it.
That's about all for now, folks!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Entitlement Part 2
There's a few things I'd like to add now on the topic, being calmer and have given some more thought on the issue.
Babies are NOT possessions to be fought over. It makes me sick when this happens, especially because some of the ones doing the most and the nastiest "fighting" are the very ones who are complaining that adoptive parents treat them as possessions that can be bought and sold. I have to include myself in this fighting to a point as I have sometimes (ahem...as in last night for one) given in to the insults and had my say. The best I can say about my behavior at these times is that it's always been defensive. Ya, I know. "You started it" is a poor excuse. I admit that.
What the mothers of loss who do this "on the offensive" need to understand is that their anger is more often misdirected than not. What do they hope to gain by insulting the general population of adoptive parents? They were insulted? Well, I'm sorry but I wasn't the one hurling those insults. Does it change the past to spew back the insults now? Do they really feel better? If so, WHY? It makes them no better than the people who treated them that way. They were called birthmothers and worse so now call us adopters? They were insulted when people told them the pregnancy was their fault so now infertility is automatically ours?
A couple of notes here. I am not judging anyone's choice to have sex before marriage. Most people do. If they were not treated with compassion while facing the consequences of that choice I am sorry. For me, though, it's a fact that every person who makes a choice has to deal with whatever might come next because of it. That's why teens shouldn't have sex in my opinion. This too isn't a judgement. It's an opinion based on the fact that most are not ready to deal with the potential consequences of it. Sex is for adults because it has potential adult consequences. Simple as that.
Anyway, now that I have that out of of my system I'll finish my thoughts on entitlement. Having a baby is a priviledge, not a right, for ANY parent. It makes no difference how you got to be a parent. No one is entitled to a baby. It happens that people who become parents through both conception and adoption sometimes get the priviledge of parenting without deserving it. Unless a "good parent detector" is invented that's not going to change. THOSE are the people who shouldn't get to be parents. I guess I could sum it up like this: good people who are or would be good parents deserve the chance to be parents.
Babies are NOT possessions to be fought over. It makes me sick when this happens, especially because some of the ones doing the most and the nastiest "fighting" are the very ones who are complaining that adoptive parents treat them as possessions that can be bought and sold. I have to include myself in this fighting to a point as I have sometimes (ahem...as in last night for one) given in to the insults and had my say. The best I can say about my behavior at these times is that it's always been defensive. Ya, I know. "You started it" is a poor excuse. I admit that.
What the mothers of loss who do this "on the offensive" need to understand is that their anger is more often misdirected than not. What do they hope to gain by insulting the general population of adoptive parents? They were insulted? Well, I'm sorry but I wasn't the one hurling those insults. Does it change the past to spew back the insults now? Do they really feel better? If so, WHY? It makes them no better than the people who treated them that way. They were called birthmothers and worse so now call us adopters? They were insulted when people told them the pregnancy was their fault so now infertility is automatically ours?
A couple of notes here. I am not judging anyone's choice to have sex before marriage. Most people do. If they were not treated with compassion while facing the consequences of that choice I am sorry. For me, though, it's a fact that every person who makes a choice has to deal with whatever might come next because of it. That's why teens shouldn't have sex in my opinion. This too isn't a judgement. It's an opinion based on the fact that most are not ready to deal with the potential consequences of it. Sex is for adults because it has potential adult consequences. Simple as that.
Anyway, now that I have that out of of my system I'll finish my thoughts on entitlement. Having a baby is a priviledge, not a right, for ANY parent. It makes no difference how you got to be a parent. No one is entitled to a baby. It happens that people who become parents through both conception and adoption sometimes get the priviledge of parenting without deserving it. Unless a "good parent detector" is invented that's not going to change. THOSE are the people who shouldn't get to be parents. I guess I could sum it up like this: good people who are or would be good parents deserve the chance to be parents.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Entitlement
Some people may not like this post. I don't care. I think I normally have a fairly progresssive and realsitic point of view about adoption but sometimes something just ticks me off and I have to vent about it. That's where I'm at. Please, bear it in mind while reading.
I've seen more entitlement talk around adoption blogs. It seems to crop up fairly regularly. Please note, I'd like to say AGAIN that I never felt entitled to a child but I am a good mother and deserve to be one as much as anyone else does.
The thing that makes me the angriest is when I'm told that I don't dseserve to be a mother because my infertility is my fault. First of all, it's not. It's a genetic issue no one had any control of. I've seen the primary causes of infertility cited and sure some of them are life choices. But you know what? So is having sex. So let's look at this a moment. There are several genetic and environmental causes of infertility that are NOT caused by a choice. There is only one, yes ONE, cause of pregnancy that is not a lifestyle choice. That obvioulsly is rape. When you compare the percentages of pregnancies caused by rape to the percentages of people who are infertile through no fault of their own, which do YOU want to bet is higher?
I'm sick of being told that infertility does not entitle anyone to a baby. It's not that I think it does. It's just that you know what? Neither does being being able to get pregnant.
I've seen more entitlement talk around adoption blogs. It seems to crop up fairly regularly. Please note, I'd like to say AGAIN that I never felt entitled to a child but I am a good mother and deserve to be one as much as anyone else does.
The thing that makes me the angriest is when I'm told that I don't dseserve to be a mother because my infertility is my fault. First of all, it's not. It's a genetic issue no one had any control of. I've seen the primary causes of infertility cited and sure some of them are life choices. But you know what? So is having sex. So let's look at this a moment. There are several genetic and environmental causes of infertility that are NOT caused by a choice. There is only one, yes ONE, cause of pregnancy that is not a lifestyle choice. That obvioulsly is rape. When you compare the percentages of pregnancies caused by rape to the percentages of people who are infertile through no fault of their own, which do YOU want to bet is higher?
I'm sick of being told that infertility does not entitle anyone to a baby. It's not that I think it does. It's just that you know what? Neither does being being able to get pregnant.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Life Lesson
Here's something I wish everyone knew, respected, and lived.
There are bad, evil people in every walk of life. No one group is exempt from that fact. If you base your opinions of groups on the few bad members of said groups, it logically follows that you simply will never find ANY group of people acceptable to you. So don't do it!!!!!!!!
There are bad, evil people in every walk of life. No one group is exempt from that fact. If you base your opinions of groups on the few bad members of said groups, it logically follows that you simply will never find ANY group of people acceptable to you. So don't do it!!!!!!!!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Another Give Away
You might want to check this out if you're on a tight budget! The author/blogger is giving away copies of her cookbook "The Five Dollar Mom Cookbook."
Friday, January 1, 2010
My First Award
I got my first award from Marythemom over at Muddling Through Mayhem. Thank you, Mary!
The Happy 101 rules are as follows:
List 10 things that make you happy and try to do one of them today. Tag 10 bloggers that brighten your day. For those 10 bloggers who get the award, link back to my blog and create a list of things that make you happy.
My Ten things that make me happy:
1. The boys, of course! What would I do without them?
2. My furbabies (when they're not knocking over water glasses or chewing up hearing aids lol).
3. My mom and dad. I just love them a lot and I know I can count on them.
4. My brother and sister and their significant others. They're great and we're there for each other.
5. My soon to be niece, B! She's silly, girly, and just all around fun.
6. My friends!
7. The hot tub!
8. Chocolate! Well, good food in general lol.
9. Reading a good book.
10. Good tv or a good movie!
I'm passing the award on to:
All the bloggers out there! LOL! I'm not good at tagging people and I love all the blogs I read (or I wouldn't read them lol). Every blog I read makes me happy in some way, even if it's just that I learn from the blogger. Mary, I hope you're ok with that! LOL.
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